Dear

Dear Lee,

Dear lee,


I see all these blogs which come in Blogger's BLOGS OF NOTE and wonder if my blog would ever turn up there?

Is it worthy? I wonder if anyone is reading my blogs. I have hardly 10 views which is pathetic honestly...

I wish I had readers, followers... but I don't want my identity to be discovered. Sometimes I can't seem to fathom why I'm doing what I'm doing.

Why am I pouring my heart out on an alien site?

Why am I announcing to the world that I have an imaginary love/best friend...?

What if people make fun of me and my frivolousness...?

All these thoughts bother me...





But then I think... if no one is reading this...who'll make fun of me?

And...my identity hopefully willl remain always a secret.


I wonder when the day will come when I'll have a follower.

Someone to share my thoughts with other than you...



Anyway... that's it for today..

Love,

Anna

Dear Lee,

Dear Lee,


Mom has gone to visit her mom.She'll be back by the 6th. My dad made lunch which I and my sister didn't eat. We ordered in from dominos. He was pissed but didn't say much because we all were too bothered about what is happening in Dil Wale Dulhania Le Jayenge. We've seen the movie a gazzillion times but still we just can't stop watching it whenever it is played on the telly. Also, It is played even in the theaters sometimes. It's beautiful I love it!

I've never been a big shah rukh fan or a Kajol fan but I  have liked them, and their couple is cuter!

I love Shah Rukh Khan in this movie. He looks soooo cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. So adorable.

And I love all the songs too. I LOVE thought of running through osh, so field of flowers. Gosh so cheesy... *blush* and maybe corny too. DEFINITELY CORNY.

But don't we all want some cheesiness in our life?

I know I do. A little won't kill anyone. :D

I hope when we meet Lee, I'll be as crazily in love with you as Kajol/  Simran is with Shah Rukh Khan/ Raj.

XOXO

Love,

Anna

Dear 25 year old

NOTE - To understand who I'm referring to please see the KEY which is pasted on the bottom of the post. The words written in ORANGE color and are CAPITALIZED are the names of people in my life. To protect their identity I have used code names. Please refer to the Key to understand more about them. Thank you.


Dear 25 year old,

I hope you're happier than I am now. I hope the WHITE COAT isn't  a part of your life anymore. I hope you've found peace and are happy.  Have you got a boyfriend yet? *giggles*. Are you still friends with ANGEL, DON'T FUCK WITH ME,BILLU, THE PERFECT GIRL ,COME BACK HOME ,LIFE SUCKS WHEN YOU TAKE SCIENCE ,BLABBERMOUTH, BUTTERFLY, AKIRA CHAN, MOODY?

I hope you are... I hope you got into St.Stephens and got back at GIRLY LOSER for  turning you down... or are you all "grown up"  and don't care about such "CHILDISH" things anymore? Hmm... I guess.... whatever suits you.. If you're happy then I'm happy. Haha, I am :) 

Have you become popular through blogging or are you still oblivious to people? Has anyone found out your true identity? I hope not. Honestly, I hope not. 

And I also hope you haven't been through anymore mortifying things as I for one, at the age of 16, have had ENOUGH.

I hope there aren't anymore waiting for me... *shudders*.

Did you and DON'T FUCK WITH ME get an apartment or something like you planned? Has DON'T FUCK WITH ME left for the US? I hope not.... we've become such close friends... gosh... It'd be horrible.

I hope you and THE PERFECT GIRL are still the best of friends. Has she found a boyfriend? I hope he's as cool and kind as she is. Has DON'T FUCK WITH ME found a boyfriend?? 

That would be the day I'd call "WHAT THE FUCK" because   DON'T FUCK WITH ME was so 'anti-boy'.... and waow... that guy haha...I'd stalk him and do a complete background check to make sure DON'T FUCK WITH ME 's got the best. I'll do the same for THE PERFECT GIRL'S boyfriend. haha.

And I hope they do for mine too. :D 

Has COME BACK HOME come home? I hope so... I think she must have...and I hope you two are still best friends... I mean WE two are still the best of friends. Hmm...

Is she still with the LOSER? I hope not. She deserves better, don't know why she lets losers fool her into believing she's got the best. Gosh. 

And are you rich? I hope so. Gosh I hope I am rich. Did you pass the civil exams? Are you an IAS officer? i hope so. I so wanted to do something for my country... it'll be a pity if I don't get in. And I hope I do write the exams. 

Sponsor a child or something when you're rich. Won't kill you. I know you/I am a miser but I hope it doesn't affect doing good for others.

Are you still a worrier? I hope not. By the way, did BIMBO get married to her boyfreind? She must be 28!!!!!!!!!! Gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

haha, I am so shocked. And gosh, PSYCHO is married, is Ms. FAKE ACCENT married too? I hope so. I hope she found the best fucking husband on this earth because she SO deserves it.

Gosh. OMG. Have any of my friends got married? WAOW. FUCK OFF!! Did BLABBERMOUTH get married? 

I hope she got married by her own will and not because her parents forced her. Did she get into NIFT ? I hope she got into it... through her hard work... and not have her husband pay for it.

I still regret not saying when she presented the prospect of getting into NIFT that way... I guess I agreed with her in some ways. She's not a bad person. She's a wonderful person, but her thoughts take me aback sometimes,.

OMG, Forget about boyfriends, have I gotten married? SHUT THE FUCK UP, I haven't! I hope I'm enjoying my life :D heheh 

Gosh, mum and dad must've started looking for a groom for me? EWWWW The whole thought freaks me out.

LMAO.

But get married if you find a hottie! JK :P

Anyway, I hope you're singing reached...somewhere...wherever that somewhere is...

I'll add any more new things if I remember...

Till then

XOXO

Love,

Anna

Dear Lee,

NOTE - To understand who I'm referring to please see the KEY which is pasted on the bottom of the post. The words written in ORANGE color and are CAPITALIZED are the names of people in my life. To protect their identity I have used code names. Please refer to the Key to understand more about them. Thank you.

Dear Lee,

I am really tensed about my result for tomorrow. Our Pol science teacher said that 81 and a half is the highest and I will be crushed if I don't get the marks. This isn't like me. Worrying about marks, cribbing over how bad my paper was, yada yada yada. I was always the care free girl. But now I've become a worrier. I constantly worry all the time.


Gosh, I am so tensed. I read my horoscope and it something which meant that I wasn't using my abilities properly because I am worrying so much. SO TRUE! But what can I do? I believe that if you want something badly you get it. It doesn't matter if you deserve it or not. Though, I know I deserve the marks because I worked really hard. My worst fear is that the WHITE COAT will get what I want.

I know I should stop comparing myself to her and blah blah blah but no one has really told me HOW. Everyone tells me WHAT to do but they skip out on the most important thing. That is, telling me HOW to do what they want me to do. *SIGH*


Oh. God, I have stopped eating non-veg because I want my wish to be fulfilled. Though, I can't tell you what my wish is or It won't come true. If or WHEN it comes true, I'll reveal my wish.


But if it doesn't... I AM BECOMING AN ATHEIST. I hope the Gods are reading this and fretting over me becoming an atheist. Or maybe they see these as empty threats.ARGH.

I pray with all my heart that my wish comes true. :X I am so scared. I have become such a dork! Gosh.

More of a worrier actually. I'm looking up sites to solve my anxiety problem. Gosh. "http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/anxiety-files/201005/the-worst-advice-worrier" This is good. Better than the help I get from people around me.
 UFF, anyway,


I was really worried and depressed so I wanted to pour my feelings out on this blog.


XOXO

Love,

Anna

Dear Lee,

NOTE - To understand who I'm referring to please see the KEY which is pasted on the bottom of the post. The words written in ORANGE color and are CAPITALIZED are the names of people in my life. To protect their identity I have used code names. Please refer to the Key to understand more about them. Thank you.


Dear Lee, 




I just finished my exams. ugh, Most of them sucked which is surprising because I had really worked hard and...I don't know.. I just don't feel its right. I have been threatening God to become an Atheist and though it has been effective in the past I don't really see any change... I think I have to cook up some new ways to threaten God.


I don't know... in some parts of life I feel so defeated and discouraged. You know how much I love to sing but... its just so annoying that WHITE COATS gets all the chances. i mean, I just got ONE frigging chance, i think I deserve more.... at least one more?




I don't know Lee....




DON'T FUCK WITH ME, THE PERFECT GIRL and I are planning a secret outing because if we let other people know about it, they'd want to come too and we three want to spend more time together because we never usually get to... so..


We are planning to go to CP and Natural Habitat Center. THE PERFECT GIRL suggested the places. When she suggested that we go to the Natural habitat Center I said to her "You've spoken like a true nerd"


Haha. LOL. But she's adorable. I love her. She and DON'T FUCK WITH  are really important in my life. So is COME BACK HOME, I miss her a lot. Its been a year since she left and I'm scared we'll grow apart.


People change, all the time. I have already changed so much. But I don't want our relationship to change. EVER.


I want to be best friends forever.  :)


So, I wrote her long letters on FB to not let her miss out on anything but unfortunately she said she couldn't read it as she's very busy. A VERY BUSY 16 YEAR OLD. Go figure. I'm not saying she's lying. I know she really is... But... oh well,


So, anyway, I sent her videos. They are fast, precise, and entertaining. She watched all of them and loved it. So, i am glad.


As soon as our 5 day < I know pathetic> vacation start I am going to BLABBERMOUTH's house for a sleepover and we will hangout to celebrate her birthday, her 17th birthday, as we couldn't because we had exams during her birthday and I have to buy something for her too... hmmm






, Gosh, LIFE SUCKS WHEN YOU TAKE SCIENCE was really sad yesterday. Her boyfriend <Now ex> did something so lame and hurtful.

Guys suck. You don't. That is because you don't exist. Not yet. Gosh, I again feel like such a freak for writing to an imaginary person.




But then, aren't we all freaks in some aspects?


Anyway, that's it for today.


XOXO


Love,


Anna.