Dear Lee,

NOTE - To understand who I'm referring to please see the KEY which is pasted on the bottom of the post. The words written in ORANGE color and are CAPITALIZED are the names of people in my life. To protect their identity I have used code names. Please refer to the Key to understand more about them. Thank you.


Dear Lee, 




I just finished my exams. ugh, Most of them sucked which is surprising because I had really worked hard and...I don't know.. I just don't feel its right. I have been threatening God to become an Atheist and though it has been effective in the past I don't really see any change... I think I have to cook up some new ways to threaten God.


I don't know... in some parts of life I feel so defeated and discouraged. You know how much I love to sing but... its just so annoying that WHITE COATS gets all the chances. i mean, I just got ONE frigging chance, i think I deserve more.... at least one more?




I don't know Lee....




DON'T FUCK WITH ME, THE PERFECT GIRL and I are planning a secret outing because if we let other people know about it, they'd want to come too and we three want to spend more time together because we never usually get to... so..


We are planning to go to CP and Natural Habitat Center. THE PERFECT GIRL suggested the places. When she suggested that we go to the Natural habitat Center I said to her "You've spoken like a true nerd"


Haha. LOL. But she's adorable. I love her. She and DON'T FUCK WITH  are really important in my life. So is COME BACK HOME, I miss her a lot. Its been a year since she left and I'm scared we'll grow apart.


People change, all the time. I have already changed so much. But I don't want our relationship to change. EVER.


I want to be best friends forever.  :)


So, I wrote her long letters on FB to not let her miss out on anything but unfortunately she said she couldn't read it as she's very busy. A VERY BUSY 16 YEAR OLD. Go figure. I'm not saying she's lying. I know she really is... But... oh well,


So, anyway, I sent her videos. They are fast, precise, and entertaining. She watched all of them and loved it. So, i am glad.


As soon as our 5 day < I know pathetic> vacation start I am going to BLABBERMOUTH's house for a sleepover and we will hangout to celebrate her birthday, her 17th birthday, as we couldn't because we had exams during her birthday and I have to buy something for her too... hmmm






, Gosh, LIFE SUCKS WHEN YOU TAKE SCIENCE was really sad yesterday. Her boyfriend <Now ex> did something so lame and hurtful.

Guys suck. You don't. That is because you don't exist. Not yet. Gosh, I again feel like such a freak for writing to an imaginary person.




But then, aren't we all freaks in some aspects?


Anyway, that's it for today.


XOXO


Love,


Anna.